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For the first time in years, I've spent New Year's Eve at home and despite what many around me seem to think I've actually had a pretty good evening with my books and some television. And if how your feeling at the stroke of midnight is any indication for how the rest of the year will turn out, hopefully I'll be as content and as at peace through 2013 as I was this evening.

The New Year is a time for resolutions. To make pacts and to promise yourself however foolishly that this time your going to stick to your vows and not abandon them halfway through and I've been thinking about my resolutions for the New Year ever since November and I think I at least have my basic goals and aspirations for the year ahead firmly in place now. And they are as below in random order.

a) Lose Weight:
I've never been hung up on the way I look. I don't hate myself but neither do I love myself and at the best of times, I think I'm thoroughly average-looking. But lately I've not been very happy with myself. And a lot of this has been down to my recent weight gain. I don't feel confident and fit, my stamina levels are way down as well and that has upset me more than anything and I need to recapture that.

b) Read Books:

My family and friends think I read entirely too much. I, on the other hand, think I don't read enough and I think I've read less than I ever have before this year.  So, in 2013, I'm leaning on lists such as this and this to get myself back on track once again. It's not that I won't be reading any books outside of these, but I'm going to try and read everyone on them as my own personal task for this year.

c) House Work: I love my house, but I'm also very lazy when it comes to actually making it a better place to live in and I want to work on changing that in the coming year. I want to paint and hang up more pictures and twirl more fairy lights around pretty glass jars and make it my dream home. I want to learn how to cook. Properly. And how to bake. And not just rely on my superior Maggi and sandwich making skills to get by.

d) Family Matters: While I'm exactly short-tempered, I am hot-tempered and very often, I go up in smoke and snap, only to deeply regret it ten minutes later and then find that the damage is done. So I solemnly swear that in 2013 I'll try harder to keep a guard on my temper, to hold my tongue, to walk away, to not be snappy, to count to ten before I explode.

e) Friendship stuff:  I'm essentially an anti-social person. I have few friends but I'm not someone who opens up about stuff that is personal to me. And in recent years, this mean that I've made fewer friends than previously because I'm less outgoing now. So in 2012, I've made friends and lost friends. I've realised who is important to me and who isn't. I have a better understanding of where I've gone wrong and I'm willing to work on it. But I'm also not as ready to have my tolerance see me kicked in the arse. So, all in all, I'm going to try harder and aim to be a better friend in 2013 and hold on tight to the ones who are worth it.

f) Self-improvement: While this has been a good year, both in terms of work and my personal life, I definitely haven't done enough to enrich myself and this year I plan to take up the Spanish language courses I've been postponing for ages, as well as the dance classes. Hopefully, I'll end 2013 having learned something new.

g) Travel tales: As I once told a colleague, the entire world is like an apple that I want to take a bite out of and I want to travel everywhere. So I hope this year is better than the last in terms of travelling. And let's face it, 2012 was EPIC! I'm hoping I get to travel for work but beyond that I'm already planning my own trips to Tarkali in Maharashtra, Ladakh up north and to Spain, Turkey and Canada. So I'm going to do my best to ensure it all happens!

Besides these, I have some other resolutions that are just as if not more important, but more private and much more personal for me to talk about on here. So let's keep our fingers crossed that I reach my goals for the year ahead.

And equally, I hope that 2013 sees more good than bad, more happiness than grief, more desire than despair and much more sunshine than clouds.


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