The silver lining

If you've been reading me for a bit, you probably will have realised that my last few posts haven't exactly been all happiness and light. They've been dark, morbid and downright depressing and I've been gloomy and depressed for a long time too.

Until today that is; I was just reading my blog and looking back over the last few conversations I've had with friends and I realised what a sad, sad person I've become.

I'm turning into the kind of person I've always hated. Whiny, pessimistic and a wet blanket. And it's such a departure from my usual happy-go-lucky, optimistic, easy-going, up-for-anything self. I've lost all sense of spontaneity. I'm not as laid back as I once was. I take offence at the tiniest of offences. I get anxious over little things. I'm quick to lose my temper and slow to make amends. And I've never been that way ever before.

So as of today, I've vowed to be much happier and try to come out of this terrible place. And in my quest to improve myself, I decided this blog needed a new look as well. Not that dank, depressing blue. So here you have it, the colours of fall, a touch of gold and a smile on my face every time I view my page.

I also solemnly swear that I will kick my own ass every time I go down that same route. And I will try not to change my template again for another month at least.

P.S: To GB, for all that you are and for all that you mean to me, in borrowed words, this is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.